Dreams

  I got the privilege to go to the Mountains with my friend who kindly showed me around!  I was in awe of the beauty and how BIG everything was.  For the past couple weeks I have been stressed, busy, tired, angry, confused, numb..I could go on and on.  My friend was going to the mountains and I asked if she could show me where to go,  she took me to the most incredible places.  One in particular I will never forget and I will be going back is "Our Secret Place."  I sat on a cliff and turned my ipod on to "Amazing Grace" and just sat.  My friend was to the right of me on another huge cliff, we were in awe and silence.  the most silence I have enjoyed in a long time.  As I was sitting there, I was begging the Lord to talk really loud and I wanted massive revelation on all that has been going on.  I waited and kept talking, imagine that!  I didn't hear anything.  I sat patiently after that, waited for His sweet voice.  Finally, I heard His voice.  I was hoping for some miraculous vision or Revelation.  Instead, "I love your heart."  I sat and soaked. 

After a little we went on to the next adventure.  I had so much fun exploring His making.
After a long day, I was driving home and asking for more I wanted more of His voice.  I was already full from seeing His beauty in the mountains, but I still as usual wanted more.  Which He loves!
I was asking for adventure, something different, dreams to happen.  He said "you have a big adventure ahead of you."
I cried, in the thought that I get to have an adventure with Him, which means more of Him.

Its been a couple days, still asking what my adventure is and when and where. (I am very patient!)

I had a meeting with Jana, (she is my mentor for Sweetly Broken, and where I am going with that) we were talking about different things with Sweetly Broken and where it is going.  As I sat there with her talking about having 2 retreats a year, me writing a study, her shepherding me. 

IT HIT ME!!! This IS my adventure, Sweetly Broken, rescuing women along side of Him.  I left excited, joyful, curious and hopeful. 

He is in the business of rescuing women, and so am I.  I get to be a part of His adventure and watching His redemption and glory. 

There are more dreams that He will fullfill but for now, I am loving this dream!

He does love my heart, because when I have my eyes on Him, my heart begins to form more like His.

He is our Mighty Fortress.

PS: Today I got a sticker on a banana that I was eating and it said "I love your heart!"

Sweetly Broken

Tonight was a sweet night with the sweetly broken retreat girls.  I am overjoyed, loved, excited, sad and extremely privileged to be sitting in the same room as these ladies.  The Lord let me be a part of a retreat, well not just a retreat, but a supernatural event.  I saw women in all different stages of there healing from abortion find freedom.  I haven't talked about this retreat in much depth yet, I think I have not is because I am still blown away.  Blown away at how much the Lord loves His women and loves His redemption story.
He took 7 women who are in different places, bonded us together then awakened our souls to a new possibility of life with Him.  I cant really describe the pictures I got when I was there, because it was not of this world.
There were 14 children aborted in that room that Saturday night, I took a moment to step back and look at the women and was overwhelmed at the healing that was happening.  I closed my eyes and saw my 2 kids dancing with me, then I opened my eyes and I saw 14 children dancing around their mothers.  I was taken back at the beauty the Lord created for me, for them, for Him. 
He is so proud to call us His children. 
He has called us into a different body, mind, soul and life. 

I hope this makes sense, I really just wanted to share how amazing our Father is.  I am thankful for the women that show up on Thursdays to share, cry, laugh and most of all just want to be in the presence of the Lord.  So very thankful for them.

i am enjoying the journey with the Lord through my abortions and blessed beyond belief to be a part of other women's journeys.
Loving the love story He has for me and all of the women.  We are ALL sweetly broken!
Thank You JESUS!!!